my hero

day eighteen: something you miss.
(in all reality, this whole "30 day challenge" has taken me much, much longer.)

My beautiful cousin Will Jacobs passed away at age 13 on September 22nd at 3:00 AM.

I missed him everyday already, but now I miss him more. He was the most loving, compassionate person that has ever walked this earth.
My words don't do it justice, but my Auntie Anja's do...

"If you ever want your opinion agreed with...express it to Will. If you ever want your confidence boosted...hang out with Will. If you ever want to learn impeccable manners...listen to Will. If you ever want to increase your patience or long suffering...watch Will. If you ever want to laugh in the face of adversity...giggle with Will. If you ever need an attitude adjustment...follow Will. If you want to know there IS a God...meet Will."

I am so grateful for my little cousin who I used to always look up to for being so darn funny, and extremely complimentary. When he got sick, I realized that my little cousin, who I rarely saw, was my hero and I am so lucky that I had the opportunity to be in his family.

I love this little boy more than words can describe, and I really, really miss him. I know he's in a better place... he was in so much pain. He never showed it though, just told people he was sorry and he that loved them..

Will has left a legacy behind him-a legacy of joy, love, and never letting life defeat you.
It isn't necessary for me to say, but "God be with you till we meet again" Will.

happy. :)

it's been a long time...
College is kicking my butt with homework, but I am so grateful to be here and to get this good of an education.

As I walk around campus (which is absolutely beautiful), I realize that I am happy.
geninuely happy. It's been a long, long time since I've felt this way.

I realized as I hustle to each class, that I am happy with who I am becoming.

music is life.

day seventeen: put your ipod on shuffle, first ten songs.

1. Boston-Augustana
2. Days Go By-The Offspring
3. Forever-Chris Brown
4. Skyway Avenue-We The Kings
5. All About Us-He is We
6. Second Chance-Shinedown
7. Blown Away-Carrie Underwood
8. Come on Get Higher-Matt Nathanson 
9. Promise-Allred
10. Stand in the Rain-Superchick

music is life, and I definitely love it all :)

frequency.

day sixteen: seven things that cross your mind a lot.

first. college ROCKS! I seriously have loved every single second of it. yes, I've gone to 5 days. yes, I will be swimming in homework and reading. and yes, I am a giddy school girl. but I seriously am in love. college is 518575 times better than high school. I promise.

seven things that cross my mind a lot? I over think everything, so this will be easy.
1) boys, boys, boys. really i'm not boy crazy. but I come to college and all I see are HOT men. not boys. MEN. granted I avoid them because I'm not getting married. but whew!! good lookin' is an understatement.

2) "WHY IS LIFE SO EXPENSIVE??" books costed me $372.83. really?

3) I need a job. a job where I can do my homework, work whenever I want, and get paid at least $10 an hour. does that job even exist? I haven't found it yet...

4) people are spectacular. my wonderful cousin Will (the one diagnosed with brain cancer one year ago) was able to speak to Bill Cosby because of all of you.

5) I love scholarships. Regents base plus exemplary equals $400 tuition to BYU.

6) I want to lose weight, but I want to eat that cookie... normally eating the cookies wins. boo.

7) WHEN IS FALL COMING? I literally am ITCHING to wear scarves and boots and cardigans and drink hot cocoa for breakfast. I cannot even wait to see BYU campus in the fall. *sigh* I love college.