random.

i promise i'm not dead yet
life has been so chaotic that blogging has LITERALLY been the last thing on my mind.

+ woot for the end of semesters. & for being a woman down at franny town (ha. it rhymes)
working twice as much as usual is fun, but also exhausting.

+ i have been in a state of exhaustion for the last two weeks. and i don't even feel bad about it.

+ i locked keys in the car on thursday. homeboy took 2 hours to get to me, and then charged me $135 dollars to do 5 minutes of labor. i hope he resides in the telestial kingdom for stealing from me.
too far? too soon? i'm still bitter.

+ i got a promotion at franny land. pump me up.

+ this post is random.
i'm mostly just trying to avoid studying. JUDGE ME.

+ here. this picture will make you happy. i laughed out loud.
then again, it doesn't take much for that to happen.
i'm a happy person. get over it.

my little brother is a shredder:

new... me

cheers to a new, well, everything.
+ new school year
yahoo sophomore year!

+ new apartment and roommates

+ new friends

+ new jobs

+ new dates

+ new major
applying for advertising in January

+ new bod
queue paleo diet lifestyle

+ new HAIR

and most importantly:
+ new me.

i got my hair did. 

i went dark. 

slash melted.

it was time for a change.

what do you think?

(sorry for the awkward selfies)

only in cougar town

now that i'm back at school, i have fully been immersed in cougar town.
it's funny, i've basically lived in utah valley my entire life, but there is something about BYU that is unlike everything else.
yet, i feel so grateful that i'm here, at this beloved university.
it truly is my dream college; i've bled blue my whole life

only at BYU:

+ will 2 white guys bust out a conversation in a completely different language.

+ will the majority of your classmates have their left ring finger occupied.

+ do people make comments in every class, not just religion, starting with, "on my mission..."

+ are men walking around in a shirt and tie.

+ will you hear babies crying in the back of your lecture hall.

+ and.. there is a baby changing area in every women's restroom

+ is there a piano in every class

+ will you see people praying before they step into the testing center.

+ do you see more hand holding, and spooning on the grass when the weather permits

+ do people freak out when there is a can of coke zero available in a vending machine in the Bramhall building.

but honestly, not everything is goofy -- only at BYU:

+ do you pray and sing a hymn before class

+ do you walk out of a humanities or physical science class full of the spirit

+ will people just smile at you as you walk by

+ is the temple is PACKED all day, everyday. even at 6 in the morning.

+ is there a devotional once a week where the entire campus shuts down.

+ will guys hold open the door for you, even if you are far behind them.

+ do you spend the first 10-15 minutes before class on the days after conference discussing things that stood out to you.

I love this place & I am so grateful I can call myself a cougar. 

a BYU cougar that is.

conference weekend

 

what a good weekend.
coussy photoshoot//datenight//going to sunday afternoon conference.

i love this gospel.

WE'RE GOING TO PROM

so, lately. most of my decisions are being based on my bucketlist
like really. it's kind of turned into an obsession.
so therefore, when i got an invite to attend a victorian ball & dinner. i had to go.

so. we all went to prom.

i honestly never thought i'd wear my senior prom dress again.

but i was wrong.

my date was great.

Taylor Evans is his name. 

he's cute. and good at ballroom dancing.

i learned how to properly act as if i lived in the victorian era.

i was really bad at it because i like to laugh too much.

check "attend a fancy ball" off my bucket list. 

who would have thought that it would actually happen?

a calling.

welp.
i got myself a new calling.
ward pianist.
i got called today at 12:50 pm. & i have church at 1:30. (that isn't important now, but it will be in about 7 seconds)
at first when he told me my calling, i was pumped. it sounded glorius. I played the piano in seminary & in young women's & in some of my classes at BYU. i should have no problem with that.
& then he asked me if i would play today.
like in 40 minutes.
and the piano pieces were already picked out.
& i have never played two of them.
great.
so i go up to the piano and play some prelude music, trying to get a feel for the pieces. & boy. was i botching them. my hands started sweating, something they always do when i get nervous.
and then my face started to feel damp.
great.
i was having an anxiety attack.
so the time comes for me to play Israel, Israel God Is Calling.
i know this sounds strange, but i have never played that hymn before. so i sight read it, & actually did okay.
i was feeling better.
then sacrament time.
hymn 184 & i aren't friends.
i BOTCHED that piece of music. and preparing the sacrament was taking quite a while, so i played after people weren't singing, and gosh.
it was bad.
so i went back to sit and just felt humiliated. never before have i played so badly.
thankfully i revived myself in the intermediate hymn as well as the closing hymn. but really?
i totally ruined the spirit.
so yay.
i was excited about my calling, but now i feel like i am going to have an anxiety attack before every sunday.

please, all of you, wish me luck.
i clearly need it.

cue round 2

somehow, someway i have become the world's worst blogger.
wanna know what's happened since july 14th (the last time i posted)?
 take a looksie.

+ I got a boyfriend.

+ my best friend left me & decided to serve the lord.

i guess i'm okay with that

+ my cousin corey came home for a slight intermission

he has a bad back, cut him some slack

but boy do I love this guy with all my heart.

seriously though.

& how proud am i??

he went back out to finish his faithful mission :)

+ i moved out

(that calls for another post)

+ i started school.

blah.

i pretend to love school.

& secretly i do, but mostly i hate it.

+ i work two jobs.

+ my best twinner cuzzy came & visited from MO before she started BYUI

gosh i love my jenna

+ oh, & i got dumped.

we dated for 2 months. 

such a good time. but then summer ended

& real life happened

& he got called to EQP...

(and it wasn't safe for us to date seriously anymore, please)

& that was the end of that.

and that is a wrap.

no wonder I don't blog.

I'm boring.

newport

everyone says it. but I mean it. I suck at blogging.
I went to Newport Beach, Cali two weeks ago & it was everything I wanted and more. We stayed in a beach house right on the beach & did nothing but read, lay on the beach, & sleep.
someone can take me back if they want. we can even get married.

we took a ferry! (bucketlist item #80)

the house that is the backdrop? yeah. that was ours. :) 

we had all sorts of adventures on the boardwalk.

but really, the sunsets were incredible. breath taking for sure.

sand castles on sand castles on sand castles

time spent with the fam is time spent well.

we had the chance to do baptisms for the dead in the Newport, California temple.

sand volleyball was a nightly activity.

(i am just worthless)

& the best part was I met some AWESOME people that I'm not real sure why it took so long to meet, but I am so grateful I got to meet the Priestley family! especially my homegirl, Alexis. 

beautiful inside & out!