breakdown

today everything that has been building up:

• my test scores
• my lack of sleep
• my massive amounts of reading/homework
• my stress
• my annoyance
• my grades

All came out, and rather than in my own room where my pillow could comfort me, it was right in front of my sociology teacher.

All of it.

I did awful on the test, so I went after class to talk to her.

naturally, I started to feel tears prick my eyes, but I was determined to hold it in, because how embarrassing would bawling in front of a professor be? (it isn't high school anymore)

But they kept coming, gathering in my eyes. After a few more pathetic attempts to hold them in, I let them come, and boy, did they come.
college is hard: harder than anything I have ever done. I am constantly being stretched to my limit, and I feel like I'm going to snap at any moment.
and of course, today was the day.

luckily she is the sweetest lady ever, but I still felt embarrassed.

really, I could not be more thankful for this break. HALLELUJAH.