Wednesday, March 6, 2013

I like Candy that's wrapped in a sweater..

well, here I am. starting another blog challenge. feel free to do if you would like!

day one: A song that reminds me of my childhood...

all you girls out there (and some boys) you can't deny you don't recall this episode!
I seriously just died a little inside because I WORSHIPED this show & Aaron Carter.. and this video is horrible. so is the music.
But instantly this song brings me back to my childhood-where life was easy, and coming home after school to watch TV was perfectly acceptable. Sometimes I want to go back, but life is good now too. Just busy.
I hope this video makes you smile as big as it made me :)

Monday, February 18, 2013

as easy as 1-2-3

Be "ABC's"
I have approximately three memories from kindergarten:
1// I always tried to kiss a certain boy, and my friend Capri (yes, that was her name) and I would alternate going under the table and the boy always went under when Capri did...not me.
2// I had the stinking cutest perm there ever was.
3// I learned the abc's.

when I was taught the alphabet, the letters were always compared to apple or banana, but never adorable or brilliant. (I guess the words vivacious & zealous are harder to remember than van & zebra, but that's beside the point.)
I was taught the abc's, but I wasn't taught to be the abc's.
I have grown up since kindergarten, except boys still don't choose me... so not much has changed...
but I have. and throughout the 13 years that have passed, I wish I was more like the alphabet..
-quiet: so I could listen to people and the world around me more..
-spontaneous: because I wish I had funner stories from high school.
-joyful: I spent so many nights upset because I didn't have "friends" or a "boyfriend". Who cares?
-original: I'm different in many aspects...I wish I would have embraced that more growing up rather than trying to mold myself into being something i'm not.
-watchful: along with quiet, I wish I was more aware of people who are hurting so I could have tried to help them.
-impressive: people don't remember me. and if they do it isn't because I changed their lives. I wish I tried to make a bigger impact on people's lives.
-good heart-ed: I feel like I have a good heart. but it could be good-er :)

but i'm still young...I'm still learning. so surely learning how to be the alphabet is still a possibility :)


Tuesday, February 5, 2013

josee maxena

I realize that I'm only posting because I don't want to write my paper... but oh well.

recently on instagram (josmaxena) there was the "tag 5 people and say 5 things people might not know about you" trend going on. I got tagged, but my 5 facts were stupid. I'm fairly sure everyone and their dog knew them. I truly enjoyed reading everyone's even though everyone complained about doing it.

anywho, because my five facts were common knowledge, I feel like I'll dedicate this post to "facts about josee" that people may not know. (you know, for all my faithful readers out there)

1// I have this obsession with gum; it might be a little unhealthy. there is hardly a moment when gum isn't in my mouth. if the stick gets gross, I spit it out and pop in another piece.
oh. and it HAS to be peppermint. extra has the best flavor, but it goes away too fast.

2// along with gum, I always have some sort of lip gloss/lipstick on. my lips are hardly ever bare.
I've spent a fortune on lip glosses over the years, but deep down Victoria's Secret is my favorite kind.

3// I go through stages via TV shows. I can go forever without watching a show, but if I start watching one, I can't do anything else with my life. I started Gossip Girl with my roommate this October, and WE ARE STILL ON THE 4TH SEASON. it's a good thing she is responsible because I definitely would have neglected everything, including school, and finished it by November. whatever.

4//even though I don't watch much TV i do have certain shows I keep up on.
The bachelor/bachelorette
Secret Teen--i love smut. judge me.
Pretty Little Liars. i liked it before it was cool

5// whenever I eat ice cream, drink hot cocoa, or have a bowl of cereal i have to have a glass of ice cold water following it.

6//speaking of ice, I also have an addiction to pebble ice. 
I even got a $20 gift card to Sonic for Christmas :)
A+

7// (my favorite number) people tell me I am very confident when I'm in a large group. and therefore I am kind of scary to approach. (people are stupid)
It's true: I know who I am, and what I stand for.
but what people don't know is that, 100% I am VERY self-conscious. 
I'm self-conscious of how tall, or the lack of height, I am.
my face is chubbier than it should be
and I don't like my eyebrows.
but on a deeper note, I feel nervous when I'm in a group of people, whether it is big or small.
i want to be accepted, but over all the years, i have been rejected by people.
so, i found something that works:
I have developed a "confidence" facade, you could say, that makes me feel more comfortable.
it's completely genuine, but my technique is to ask people as many questions as i can think of to
1) get to know them
& 2) get the attention off of me.
it works fairly well because i like listening to people, and people like to talk about themselves.
then after our conversation they realize they like me, only because I let them talk, and talk...
and talk.
about themselves.
sometimes I'm a genius.
8// I tell people I've kissed X number of boys, except it's a lie.
I've kissed more, I just like to pretend I didn't and un-count them.
it's a thing, right?

9// even though it isn't obvious, I actually love to run.
maybe if i laid off the sweets, it would show a little more.
eh, life is meant to be enjoyed, right Gordon?

10//  I'm an avid book reader.
i love to get into comfy clothes, wrap up in a blankie and lose myself in a book
where there are actually boys who i wish were real.
I like to forget my problems and just pay attention to theirs.
I definitely cry, and laugh out loud when reading.
I am very invested in the fictional characters lives.
judge me.


Saturday, January 19, 2013

feast your eyes

between instagram & facebook, you are probably sick of these photos.
oh well. 
edwards' family 2013







the two that made this all possible; so grateful for them











I can't get enough of this beautiful girl. && she isn't just beautiful on the outside.
& this stud here... I love him.
& ladies, isn't he just the handsomest? wait till you get to know him.  even better.









Wednesday, January 9, 2013

2nd chances

welp. here's to my second semester here at the one and only, BYU.

Monday:
12-writing 150
freshman writing--the most dreaded class across the U S of A. I feel like I'll do okay, except my wannabe "master" (he has his masters and is waiting to be accepted into PhD programs) might be my best friend or worst enemy. 
I haven't decided yet.
1-physical science 100
my auntie Anja told me this is the worst class at BYU. And here I am, taking it. My professor is a GOOFBALL. but I am going to love him. I'm real excited actually

Tuesday:
9-biology 100
kind of early. 300+ people. Stuttering professor whom I kinda have a secret crush just because he's a cute man (in a 45+ years old way). It'll be a hoot; that's my best explanation
12-Book of Mormon part 2
My professor is easily going to be my favorite religion professor/teacher/leader EVER. I've already had so much insight and inspiration about the scriptures, and I've had one class.
1-LDS Marriage and Family
Before you mock me, I know this is 110% a BYU class. I get it. But this professor is actually from my home stake, Brother Dorius, and I am so pumped about this class! It's going to be really insightful, and if I ever do get married (I don't plan to for a looooong time) I'm sure all of this information will be very useful :)

Wednesday:
repeat of Monday until...
2-physical science lab
today we had a sub lab. 7 words.
I'm glad she isn't my real TA.

Thursday:
repeat (shawty's like a melody in my head that I can't get out got me singing like... la la la la everydaaay, like my ipod's stuck on replay, repllayaay)

Friday:
repeat the Monday

I'm excited to start my second semester.
I feel like I know what to expect and that I will have fun as well as learn a lot.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

why you over so soon, Christmas?

today, I rolled out of bed at 10:30 a.m.
I ate 3 pieces of toast and applied for 2 jobs on campus--which, no one seems to hire me, I've applied to at least 20.
anywho, then I sat around and uploaded some pictures, wasted my time messing around on iTunes and then made banana bread.
I caught myself up on all of TV shows, just to get behind again when school resumes on Monday.
I accomplished all of this while still wearing my jammies, walking around my home bra-less, and with un-brushed teeth. (call me disgusting, I won't judge you).
I realized that today was really my LAST day before summer time that I had to do absolutely nothing. and so I took advantage of it.

Christmas was wonderful. I've loved being home, I forgot how much I love my bed, and waking up to warmth and a big hug from Chloe. I know I live 20 minutes away, but I rarely come home (due to my absence of a car) and I've loved every second of it.

I got spoiled beyond belief, and remembered the true meaning of Christ. I love Christmas, and I'm sad to see it go...


 we started a new tradition: ugly sweaters on Christmas Eve


 the famous sugar cookie decoration took place.



 we started another fun new thing... lemon puckers.
we also played white elephant
 we got our jammies!
 Santa came! i love my new fossil purse, fossil wallet, and fossil watch :)


Tuesday, January 1, 2013

cheers.

2011 introduced the trials into my life.
-cancer became involved in our family
-I tore my knee up all sorts of awful
-my wonderful papa lost his job

2012 took those trials and decided to finish what they started.
-cancer beat my grandpa and my cousin Will
-due to my knee, I wasn't fully ready for try-outs, & therefore didn't make the BYU cheer squad
-the weight of losing a job became apparent in our lives.

but the difference between good ol' 11 and twenty-twelve was my attitude.
it took me a little bit to create a good perspective on life, but it happened.

along with the now apparent trials and tribulations, and blessings were also poured into my life.
I was accepted into BYU, I received a scholarship which helped tremendously with paying for my school. I had the opportunity to see God's hand in my life. He really does care for me and knows who I am. I learned that He has a plan for me, and it is going to be accomplished on His time-table, not mine. But most importantly, I was blessed with the opportunity to become happy. Truly, truly happy...

I learned so much, and I can't for 2013 so I can apply what I've learned, and grow into a wonderful person.

cheers to 2013: I have no idea what God has in store for me, but I can't wait to find out.